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I told myself if i ever saw a sorority girl with her septum pierced i would take mine out. Well kids, i finally saw what looked like a sorority girl with her septum pierced. I'm staying true to my word and letting one of my 10 piercings close up.
I finally caved in and bought a wetsuit that was on sale at a sports store going out of business. I can now finally swim freely in Lake Washington or the Pacific ocean without having to worry about hypothermia. I have a wicked tan.
My hair is getting long and i let it flow wild and free. My "beach hair" has inspired me to let it flip, curl and turn wavy in every which direction it chooses to bounce. I also stopped shampooing everyday, and after that in between oily period my hair is looking healthier, thicker, and shinier than ever.
I'm going back to Pierced Hearts this Thursday to work on more of the tattoo sleeve i started. It's Egyptian themed. Left arm.
The swine flu (or really, really bad flu) that i had is finally just about gone. Thank god for that. I still have a nasty cough lingering around, but all other symptoms seem to have died off.
Another one of my Scorpions passed away. There are just two left.
Yesterday, on my day off, i put on a pair of gloves, and cleaned the trash out of my apartment's parking lot for free. I couldn't stand looking at the litter anymore. Hopefully people driving by saw me, and will be influenced to do the same. We share this beautiful planet together people.
I'm going through a wonderful personality change. My self esteem is high, and i'm living, breathing, and eating the philosophy of "will i regret not doing this later?". I'm getting back in touch with nature by spending as much time as i possibly can outside. My social skills are at a peak. My bamboo is growing strong, and looks happy. My cat falls more in love with me (and vice versa) each time i visit.
I'm bored with my job, but i'm quite content with life right now.
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[25 Apr 2009|07:51pm] |
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I still can't get my twitter to post. Everything works EXCEPT for the actual posting of them on the Live Journal. I'm just going to copy and paste them manually until i figure this problem out.
* 16:17 Back on land! two words: Rob's shorts.
* 19:44 Finally out of a wet bathing suit and in baggy clothes. all i need now is a snuggle.
* 20:42 Going to bed.
* 01:32 Walking to work. hella late.
* 06:15 Still has the beach look. was just asked by a customer if i surf. my face is also burnt.
* 10:33 just took a nap at work. theyre lucky i made it this far.
* 14:56 Sleep. going to try to have some lucid dreams. sexy ones. #
* 00:47 Walking to work. #
* 01:01 The sorority slut are out tonight. they have no soul. im sure of this. #
* 01:02 My god these bitches are loud #
* 10:07 Just 1 more hour. #
* 11:47 ITS FRIDAY BITCHES!! #
* 21:07 At the tanning salon. craving red wine like woah. #
* 21:32 At Issian having Japanese and sake! yay friends! #
* 22:15 Urgh ... eat Saba slow ... its too oily to eat fast ... #
* 00:09 I heart drinking Rioja's and cuddling with cats #
* 08:16 More nightmares : / #
* 10:56 i was swimming the whole time in my lucid dream. didn't get swept away either. good sign, ya? #
* 12:55 Meeting up with an old friend at cafe on the ave for coffee. its old friends week! #
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(3 goddamn noises inside my head | i wont give up it wants me dead)
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| Skype/Twitter |
[18 Mar 2009|01:27pm] |
Add me to your twitter! Taschie85
Add me to your Skype! Taschie85
I've been using the name Species for YEARS now for just about everything personal. Now the name has become impossible to get because people keep taking it. I wish i could just buy that nickname on the internet.
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(2 goddamn noises inside my head | i wont give up it wants me dead)
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[10 Mar 2009|08:36pm] |
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In my mind's eye, I see, three circles joined in priceless, graceful harmony. Two full as the moon, one hollow as a crown. Two from the sea, five fathoms down. One from the earth, deep under the ground. The whole, a mark of high renown. Tell me, what can it be?
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| Seattle Breaking News |
[06 Mar 2009|07:57pm] |
Two guys robbed a bank in Washington state today around 5PM and decided to take police for an hour long chase into MY AREA. The suspects (2) drove a red van into Wallingford (where i live) off of an I-5 exit, and then jumped out of their vehicle and ran. One suspect is in custody, the other is still hiding.
After 10+ minutes of sirens going by my apartment building, and police cars doing u-turns in the middle of rush hour, i started searching the web for "seattle breaking news". Found live helicopter footage which i watched for probably a good 25 minutes. Suspect is still at large 3 hours later.
Raf i need your Skype name.
Oh we're also supposed to get more snow according to the news and our mountains have avalanche warnings. I swear if the East Coast isn't getting slammed with weird weather we are.
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[02 Mar 2009|07:33pm] |
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My mother told me today on the phone that she was nervous about a black man going into office because she was afraid he would only do things for "his people".
My mother grew up and STILL lives in BALTIMORE. Her best friend is African American. I don't understand why the hell she says this shit.
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| Live |
[24 Feb 2009|04:25pm] |
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So while i was at work today preparing pastries i was trying to remember every single show/concert i've ever been too. I started realizing i saw all these bands that i had completely forgot about. So i came home, and looked online to all of the festivals i've been too, and wrote up a list. These are all of the bands i've seen live.
- Stabbing Westward
- Slipknot
- System of a Down
- Rammstein
- American Head Charge
- No One
- NOFX
- The Mighty Mighty Bosstones
- The Casualties
- Finch
- Glassjaw
- Tsunami Bomb
- Alkaline Trio
- Flogging Molly
- Reel Big Fish
- Bad Religion
- MXPX
- Deviates
- The Ataris
- Millencolin
- Yellowcard
- Eminem
- Hoobastank
- Sum 41
- The Strokes
- Our Lady Peace
- N.E.R.D.
- New Found Glory
- Goldfinger
- The Vines
- Jah Works
- Papa Roach
- Good Charlotte
- Dashboard Confessional
- Godsmack
- Audioslave
- Janes Addiction
- Chevelle
- AFI
- The Used
- The Donnas
- Hed PE
- The Cure
- The Offspring
- P.O.D.
- Violent Femmes
- Yellowcard
- O.A.R.
- Modest Mouse
- Yeah Yeah Yeahs
- Lit
- Fall Out Boy
- Jimmies Chicken Shack
- Nine Inch Nails
- Bauhaus
- Dropkick Murphys
- Sister Machine Gun
- Genitortures
- The Pillows
- Tentacled Sawfish
Well that was fun. I'm sure i'm probably missing a few. Oh yeah. I have the flu.
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| Don't read this. |
[14 Feb 2009|02:28am] |
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Valentines day is tomorrow. Normally i wouldn't give a crap, but i had lingering disabilities sauntering around. I've been torn on whether or not i was going to leave a rose on my recent ex's car while she was at work. I decided against it. Reason being? She just doesn't deserve it.
I had told a co-worker about my plan pre break-up, and she asked what i was still planning on doing. I told her i would try as hard as i could not to. Truth is, i have to try really hard not to be sweet. It's just in my nature. To all of the brief encounters i've had with random people who think i'm nothing more than a cold-heartless-bitch: "Id rather be a bitch than a broken heart." Fuck you. Go away.
I had to cave in and reach a ultimate low. I had to ask my mom for help with bills. I was screwed over by (surprise, surprise) my insurance company, and was put back so far there was no way i could catch up on my own. Bills were coming faster than my pay checks. I'm usually pretty good with money, but this "economy" is fucking everyone over. Even me.
It's natural for me to be down and feeling sorry for myself. I was just slapped in the face pretty hard by the cold hand of life. Eventually i will learn and grow stronger from these experiences, but right now id rather listen to somber music and sit close to my lava lamp. I have/need to reflect.
My social life is becoming impossible. The only time i have energy to actually get important things done is during my weekend. I have a decent sized load of responsibility on me (compared to most of the slackers i run into) and i usually have only one night to do whatever i want. By that night i am so thrashed and far from social it becomes impossible to mingle sporadically. I can understand now why they say working the graveyard shift makes you go a little crazy. It's so hard to fall asleep after you've watched everyone wake up and the sky ignite. It usually takes me a few hours to unwind and by then it's 4-5PM and everything is pumping through the streets in full force.
I still wonder if something is telling me Seattle is not the place for me to be. All of my favorite people that i run into here eventually move away. Chris (my cousin) moved to Spain, then Cyrus (my best male friend) moved back home to Montana, and had a baby. Krista (my best female friend) moved back home to the impossibly redneck Eastern Washington. Matt and Baas, (my Irish Pub buddies) just moved to their recently bought house in New Orleans. They were my favorite couple in the world.
I fell asleep earlier today around 3PM due to exhaustion, and had nothing but nightmares. They always seem to be particularly harsh when i'm not feeling well. Crazy fun fact: I experienced something completely new for me in relation to dreams. The other night i had a follow-up dream/sequel to a dream THAT I HAD FORGOT. Is that not awesomely strange?! Unfortunately they were nightmares so the experience was more-so bad.
These particular nightmares i've been having are violently detailed. The amounts of fear, panic, and gore i've been "experiencing" are not natural. I already know my love of horror films (don't forget i have a 600+ DVD collection) has probably affected my sub-conscious, but i think it spawns much deeper. I shamefully admit to you that i occasionally find myself curious enough to watch "Snuff". I used to visit snuff sites daily. You know,;
www.stileproject.com
www.theync.com
www.nothingtoxic.com
www.rottendot.com
In high school this became an obsession. I even have a Stile-Project sticker on my laptop right now. 7 years later i am still haunted by the things i've seen. I think my nightmares are an act of rage against myself for indulging in curiosity.
Maybe it was just the wrong time to crawl out of my shell. Maybe there's something off in the stars. Maybe i just need to get over all of this and keep trying.
I filed my taxes yesterday. Some $400 back. Don't forget if you made over a certain amount of money you have until April to get your taxes in or you will be fined by the IRS/government. It's better to get it out of the way now.
I'm trying to organize a camping trip to Diamond Lake/Crater Lake National Park this summer. So far no good. None of my friends in Seattle are serious enough to take down details that i have gone out of my way to get. I don't know if i'm brave enough to go on a huge camping/hiking trip around a national park by myself. It just doesn't seem smart.
I'm going to leave this journal entry on an uplifting note because anyone who reads this deserves it. I have been fantasizing about how this summer is going to turn out. Work is none existent in these thoughts. Responsibility is comfortably put on hold. Guard and tension have been dropped to new extremes. It's leaving a trail of friends and animals briefly behind while i make sure i am the first one to take in the first deep breath of the body of water i am about to submerge myself in. it's racing my friends huge, water-loving dogs, to the stick that made them jump in. It's having sore legs and laying on warm sand trying to hold a conversation while not sounding too out of breath. It's doing this over and over again for hours. It's doing it all over again the next day and looking forward to it.
I can't wait until it gets warm enough to swim outside again.
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